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Reverend Dr. William H. Curtis

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What Is Your Big Need?

“What do you want me to do for you?” Jesus asked him. The blind man said, “Rabbi, I want to see.”

Mark 10:51 (NIV)

The blind man, Bartimaeus, didn't vacillate when asked the question, “What do you want me to do for you?”

Do you know how hard it would be for most of us to answer that question? The difficulty would arise not because we don't have answers, but because we haven't narrowed them down to the most significant need. If Jesus had offered us that same invitation, some of us would probably respond, “How many choices do I get?”

But Bartimaeus lived every day having resolved what his big need was in life. He didn't pause or waver: “Lord, I want to see.”

Here is perhaps one of the most significant questions you’ll have to answer relative to your relationship with Jesus: What is your big need in life? And before you answer, just know it's never based on temporal or human positioning. It's not about status among others or pursuit of riches or climbing the social ladder. It is always and will forever be a matter of the spirit. It'll always be worked out in the heart, in the mind, and in the soul.

So my question to you is “What's your big need?” 

  • Is it to own the uniqueness of your personality as destined by God, so you can stop role-playing for other people based on their expectations?
  • Is it to accept the path that God wills for your life and the need to center yourself on that road?
  • Is it to stop seeing the movements of your life as accidental and to start seeing them as purposeful and providential?
  • Is it to learn how to embrace and interpret everything through spiritual lenses and define God in it all?
  • Is it to learn that even your pain and your pressure are carrying gifts from God that can only be delivered in the package that has caused your tears?
  • Is it to walk in rhythm with the way God has ordered your steps and to resist the pull and push of other people?
  • Is it to stop hiding your anointing, stop side-stepping your calling, and to embrace what God wants for you? 

What's your big need in life? I promise you that if you answer that, you have also found your big why in life.

Holding on to “You”

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Psalm 139:14 (NIV)

Here is how you prevent yourself from losing yourself in life:

Find the “you” that faith informs and build your mission from there.

That’s how you keep from losing yourself in your relationships, in your search for economic status, in your place of employment, in your seeking of titles, or in your regret of having lost them in gross disappointments, calamity, catastrophe, or crisis.

Again, to guard yourself against losing yourself, you must find yourself in the faith that informs you and then build your mission from there.

Whatever your current station in life, your position in the marketplace, your acceptance or disapproval in certain circles, your physical strength or weakness—none of these things are threat enough or power enough to make you lose “you.” Age, potential decline, loss of love, destruction of relationships, betrayal by others that you’ve trusted, heartbreak—all of the things that take from us as they pass through our lives (some of which may even develop strongholds in certain seasons) never have to result in you losing “you.” That’s because not one thing you can experience—from devastation to utter disappointment—can snatch you if you keep your faith informed by the promises of God, remind yourself of the power of God, and settle into your role in the purposes of God.

As long as I believe there is a God, as long as I know that He loves me, and as long as I remember that He has ordered my steps and is working things together for my good, I don't ever have to lose myself. This is true despite tricky seasons and tough predicaments.

Fight to keep “you” because you were divinely and intentionally imagined. Fight to keep “you” because you are blessed with a unique experience that God has ordered only for you. Fight to keep “you” because your voice and your gifts and your ministry are desperately needed. Fight to keep “you” because you are worth it.

Don’t Lose Yourself

Then they came to Jericho. As Jesus and his disciples, together with a large crowd, were leaving the city, a blind man, Bartimaeus (which means “son of Timaeus”), was sitting by the roadside begging. When he heard that it was Jesus of Nazareth, he began to shout, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!”

Mark 10:46-52 (NIV)

Bartimaeus was a blind man caught between worlds in so many ways. He was caught living between Jewstheir customs and traditions, their religious practices and their faith beliefs—and the Romans, who occupied the land, oppressed the people, and fed their own greed at the people's expense.

Bartimaeus was caught between his own physical conditions. He could see, with his inner eye, his need for Jesus and his need for a miracle, yet he was unable to physically see.

And Bartimaeus was also caught between people's tolerance and their ambivalence. They didn't mind him sitting by the roadside begging. They could tolerate that. But they didn't want to deal with his desires to see or his belief in Jesus's ability to heal.

Yes, Blind Bartimaeus, sitting by the roadside, was caught between worlds, caught between conditions, caught between people's tolerance and ambivalence.

It's easy to lose yourself when living in that kind of middle space, isn't it? It’s easy for the culture’s tension around you to seep in and become part of you. You feel obligated to choose sides, even though both sides may have virtue and vice. It’s so easy to see and sense both sides of an issue that you end up losing yourself between sight and blindness. It’s easy to lose yourself when those around you are both irritated and tolerant of your very presence and existence. They encourage your roadside hustle as long as it doesn't interfere with their mainstream ambitions.

Bartimaeus had lost a lot. He had lost his sight. He had no competitive station in life. He, along with the other Jews, had lost cultural power amid the Roman occupation. And when he started crying out and began to be hushed by the crowd, it appeared he had lost his right to speak up for his choices. But Bartimaeus kept crying out for Jesus, proving that amid all he had lost, he hadn't lost himself. He hadn't lost his voice, his choice, his fight, or his determination. He was still there. Even if behind blind eyes, he was still there.

My exhortation to you today is that, with a confidence in the Lord like Bartimaeus had, don't lose yourself in the constant struggles and battles you must face in this life. Don't lose yourself amid pain and heartbreak and disappointment and regret. Don’t lose yourself.

So Much to Praise God For

Shout for joy to the Lord, all the earth, burst into jubilant song with music.

Psalm 98:4 (NIV)

 

Richard Stearns, the president of World Vision, visited a church in Port-au-Prince, Haiti, nearly a year after the nation’s devastating earthquake. The church’s building consisted of a tent made from white tarps and duct tape, pitched in the midst of a sprawling camp for thousands of people still homeless from the quake.

In the front row of that church sat six amputees ranging in age from 6 to 60. They were clapping and smiling as they sang song after song and lifted their prayers to God. The worship was full of hope and thanksgiving to the Lord.

No one was singing louder or praying more fervently than Demosi Louphine, a 32-year-old unemployed single mother of two. During the earthquake, a collapsed building crushed her right arm and left leg. After four days, both limbs had to be amputated, but she was leading the choir, standing on her prosthesis and lifting her one hand high in praise to God.

Following the service, Stearns met Demosi and her two daughters, ages 8 and 10, who were living in a tent just five feet tall and perhaps eight feet wide. She had lost her job, her home, and two limbs, but she was deeply grateful because God spared her life on January 12, 2010. “He brought me back like Lazarus, giving me the gift of life,” says Demosi, who believes she survived the devastating quake for two reasons: to raise her girls and to serve her Lord for a few more years.

Richard Stearns comments: “It makes no sense to me as an ‘entitled American’ who complains at the smallest inconveniences—a clogged drain or a slow wi-fi connection in my home. Yet here in this place, many people who had lost everything expressed nothing but praise.” Then he continues, “They have so much more to offer me than I to them. I feel pity and sadness for them, but it is they who might better pity me for the shallowness of my own walk with Christ.”

On this holiday weekend, those of us who are Americans have much to give thanks and praise for. Let’s take a lesson from Demosi Louphine and praise God for His abundant blessings and the gift of life.

Your Big Decisions

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths.

Proverbs 3:5-6 (NKJV)

So many people in the crowd that waved branches on Palm Sunday and shouted “Hosanna!” were nowhere to be found when Jesus was crucified just a few days later.

In a spiritual sense, many of us are currently in that crowd with our palm branches waving, with shouts of adoration and celebration for our King. But will we still be adoring and celebrating when the big decisions in life come our way?

As you chart your future and think about your plans, as you nurse and give attention to your emotions and make critical decisions—where does Jesus stand in all of it? Is He still the centerpiece of your focus?

There is no doubt you have big decisions in life. Anointed lives always have big decisions associated with big gifts and big opportunities. You have crucial choices to make. You have an important life to steward. You have valuable relationships to nurture. You have limited time to live this life.

Like a vapor, life is here and then it transitions from temporality to eternality—so the things you decide have to count. You don't have time to waste. It has to be the best decision and you can’t make your choices lightly.

I can’t give you answers to the questions and choices before you, because your faith needs to do that. But before you grab a palm branch and before you start the festive cry of “Hosanna,” answer first this question: Is Jesus in the center of your decision-making?

Every decision should be filtered through Jesus. That is how you love your enemies and accept those who might otherwise be pushed away. That is how you choose ministry over other opportunities and make decisions that are in obedience to God. That is how you move forward when you have less data than you would like. That is how you walk by faith and not by sight.

Trust Him, and then take one step at a time. You don't need to know all the details in order to make the big decision before you—because you know enough about Him to trust that He is going to work it out for your good and for His glory.

Put Jesus at the center of your decision-making.